fake shyts.. im seriously sick of it.
talking to me jus for the sake of it!
talking to me only when u need something.
M i like transparent or are u doing it on purpose?
im definitely not transparent (due to my size la)
im hating you more whenever i think of how you made use of me in the past
or m i being stupid to let you make use of?
im trying to get rid of the hatred in me.
but everytime i see you or heard your name,
the sense of hatred gets stronger!
im not doing it on purpose.
its somewhat a unconditioned response to me,
or perhaps a conditioned response.
im trying~ ~ ~

im trying to get back the friendship that we used to have.
but im afraid~
afraid that history repeats.

how to get rid of the fear and hatred in me??
HOW?
someone please tell me~
someone please help me~~